It’s been a while.

Well, it’s been a while since my last post, several months actually. Lots has happened since then. I think the biggest thing is that we relocated back to NYC after five years of living in Charlotte NC.
It’s crazy, you never really know how accustomed you’ve become to something until you don’t have it anymore.
Charlotte really changed us. In some ways good, in some ways not so good. But all were lessons learned and permanently branded into who we are as people.
It almost feels like we’re re-learning how to be New Yorkers. Whether its readjusting to the volume and speed that people speak at or making sure that I don’t take my sweet time moving after the traffic light has turned green. I mean I swear, you would think that someone’s life depended on how quickly you got going after the light changes.
Anyway. I think we’re doing a pretty good job considering. It’s taking some time, but we’re getting there.
It’s really hard sometimes though. I sometimes feel like God does something big and monumental like this, then kinda drops off the scene afterward. Now I know that’s not true, but it does feel like that.
I sometimes wish God would just speak to and guide me continually. Like every step of the way. At least that how I think a times. I used to think that God wanted to micro-manage every little detail of my life, but I’m not so sure about that anymore.
One morning while in prayer I was talking to God about this very thing and I felt like He spoke something to my heart. He said that its not so much that He wants control of every detail as much as He wants to have my whole heart. If He has my whole heart, then the decisions I make will always be in light of wanting to please Him. And if that’s true, then He can lead and guide me as I try to navigate and figure out what His will is. Also there’s the taking steps of faith in that process. If we always just waited for God to bark directions at us, them where is waking by faith and not by sight?
I understand this is my mind, I get it if I meditate on it enough, but I’m so quick to forget when it’s crunch time.
There are a number of areas that I know God has given me new understanding in, but I still have yet to see these revelation if you will, burned into my heart.
I so desperately want that.

Well, another cool thing is my son Levi turned two years this past February. He’s such a little miracle, such a character, such a joy and challenge all at the same time. How is that even possible!? How is it that you can love this little person so much but wanna headlock him also at times? Crazy.

Anyway, I’ll end this now, but I’m definitely gonna get back to blogging, hopefully much more often, even if its just quick entries. I gotta get more consistent with this.

Blessings!